Not Just Fat

All my life, there was an awareness that I wasn't as good as other people because of my weight. If I could just lose enough weight, maybe I could trick other people into believing I was as good as them. But I could never quite lose the weight. Sometimes I got close. But not close enough. And so I had to settle...

Skinsuit Season

I awake exhausted From a languid night And the long day that threatens Eyes too blurry from the past To focus on today Absentmindedly, I lotion Skin that stretches to accommodate My sins My moods My memories The heat is unbearable But I wear this blanket of shame to keep me in To keep you …

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A Walk Along The River

My husband and I took a walk along a local wooded trail on Saturday. A windstorm earlier in the week had stripped most of the fading autumn leaves from the branches, giving us an almost unencumbered view of the river. I love walking alongside the river, particularly the portions where the water seems to rush …

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National Coming Out Day

I'm a little late posting this, but I'd like to wish everyone a Happy Coming Out Day! Whether you've been out and proud for a long time, or are still quiet and hesitant, or maybe aren't ready to tell a soul... it's your choice. This day is still a day for you.  How you come …

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Stop Hiding, Start Fighting

For years, I've struggled with depression, anxiety, OCD, and eating disorders. Wow. You know? As a writer, that has to be the weakest sentence I've ever written. Let me rephrase that: Since puberty, I've been overwhelmed by feelings of crushing hopelessness, fear and panic. Time and again, as recently as a few months ago, depression …

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