A Time of Deep Mourning

While many people were so happy to see the end of 2020, I'd gladly go back if it meant seeing my parents again. 2020 was not without pain for my family. My mother suffered from cancer. It was a time of worry and stress. But we had hope. At the beginning of 2021, my parents …

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Weight Loss Resolutions

In yesterday's post, A New Year, A Fresh Start, I wrote about New Year's Resolutions and setting realistic goals. Since I briefly mentioned losing weight and my own recent weight loss goals in that post, I decided to write a little more about this. I know many people have fitness goals at the beginning of …

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Bodies

It was never truly mi I wrote the following piece to express the way I've been feeling lately, and have often felt at various points during my life in regards to my physical body. As I've previously written on this blog, I've struggled in the past from disordered eating and obesity. I can remember from …

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Not Just Fat

All my life, there was an awareness that I wasn't as good as other people because of my weight. If I could just lose enough weight, maybe I could trick other people into believing I was as good as them. But I could never quite lose the weight. Sometimes I got close. But not close enough. And so I had to settle...

Skinsuit Season

I awake exhausted From a languid night And the long day that threatens Eyes too blurry from the past To focus on today Absentmindedly, I lotion Skin that stretches to accommodate My sins My moods My memories The heat is unbearable But I wear this blanket of shame to keep me in To keep you …

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